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updating my feature post! hehehe. well from this date— 23/12/21, I’m no longer using song titles as my entry’s header but I’ll put whatever thing that comes to mind as I’m writing it :) that’s all lols 😂  ENJOY! ❤️

salam sayang semuaaa! aaaand the day has come again! my favourite day and date of all year - september 22nd! (it's tomorrow but lemme give myself an advanced birthday wish hehe) I don't know if it's merely because it's my birthday, but ive always loved the date; 22/9, 22 September. the date itself I found beautiful, don't even know why but yeah... hehehe. maybe that's why my favourite number is 22. plus, I think it's also the most perfect time of the year, to be happy, to be celebrating. usually the rainy season is about to start, mid September, or early October. hence I've always felt it was a great time. a time where it's not too warm, nor too cold. just nice. I actually had no idea what to write hahaha but I want to write something. keeping this date as a memory as tomorrow's also the start of our interview session (SPP). nerve-wrecking. alright, let's try to write something. short, sweet and simple. tomorrow ill be 23. hm. 23. long way to...

  Noor had always despised the person or people who invented the idea or speculation of ‘daughters would have closer relationship to the Dad, while sons would usually be closer to the Mom’. When Noor was seven, she confirmed herself that the statement was idiotically wrong and far from reality. At least in her reality.           Ever since she was a child, Noor has always felt that she was the unexpected, unwanted presence in their household. She shouldn’t have been there. She shouldn’t have been born. The only thing that sometimes would temporarily soothe her worries would be a hug from Aidil or a playful pinch on the cheek from Fahri, her older twin brothers. But it was momentarily, for every time she had to interact with her Baba, the burdening feelings of being unwanted came back, flooding in her thoughts and drowning her breathless in anxiety.           With Ami, it was bearable, she knew her Ami loves her, but still,...

  That day when we decided on a staycation after our graduation, I never would have imagined he would also be there. Don’t get me wrong. He’s always been a part of the group and after all that happened between us, he’s still a dear friend. Maybe a little bit too ‘deary’ for me. I mean- we were just fine and everything… was normal. But anyway, here we are. Sitting right across each other. So close yet so far. We all know that he's right now seeing someone and he seems genuinely happy. From what we all see, the girl's great. Passionate and loving. In every aspect, she's so much better than me. And I'm happy for him too. Well- that's what I've been trying to tell myself over and over and that's also what everyone perceives from seeing us so okay. God knows what I had to go through to put up with the whole thing. Oh God. I should stop. They were in love, they were happy! So get a grip and be happy for them, you stupid self! Anyway, what’s going on right now is, ...

so today I watched two anime movies and no books update wahahaha maleh nak membaca. I watched the wolf children at 4 in the morning gituh then watched bakemono no ko in the evening. so--- yeeah. well- overall both movies were amazing and I love every bit of them. let me talk about Bakemono no Ko (2015) first cause it's the most recent ive watched. a bit summary; Ren just lost his mom and his dad was nowhere to be found. he supposedly had to stay with his relatives which are all jerks so he didnt want to, so he ran away. so basically he was living around the city without any money, then one day he bumped into Kumatetsu, a beast with wolf face. so Kumatetsu was like this reckless person and is trying to be a grandmaster of beast world, with Iozan as his opponent, but Kumatetsu didnt have any successor or disciple so he took Ren in, and called him Kyuuta (in beast world Ren is Kyuuta). then after 8 years, Kyuuta became a grown up and one day he went into the real world and met Kaede....

  "Into the Forest of Firefly Lights" (2011) (Anime) I have to talk about this one. OMGGGG I think I had watched this once when I was younger but of course I forgot already. and i just rewatched it this evening and it's saaaddd brooooo. it's quite sad but predictable and short but veryyy meaningful. it's actually also adapted to live-action but im talking about the anime guys! omg. as always, many anime movies are good enough that it would take some time for me to recover from it aaghhh and this one is definitely one of them. genre; romance fantasy gitu. my favourite genre! fantasy. uhuks. anywayyy a bit summary; Hotaru got lost in an enchanted forest and met Gin, the 'spirit' of the forest and Gin helped her find her way out and from then, they became friends. and soon enough, Hotaru grew up and they developed feelings for each other. OH a very important part of the story; Gin CANNOT be touched by human as if he did, he would disappear forever. so all the...

  yupp...so for my book review 'project', I decided to put the title as my post entry, so it'll be easier for me to track hehehe. but for the song im listening to right now, it's "heart attack" demi lovato. alright let's not waste time and go straight to my book review. this time, it's The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas by Ursula K. Le Guin. this one is just a short story, not a novel but it's very good. oh before that. a bit disclaimer; i had read the story like a very long time ago so maybe there are things i mentioned that wouldnt be accurate but im pretty sure the gist of the story is still clear in my mind. so apologies in advance :) this book, is actually quite dark. a story of people in a village / city of Omelas whose happiness depends on the misery of a child. in order to live a prosperous life, they did it as a tradition to lock a child in some kind of closet. kind of a psycho ritual (if you ask me) but they believed that was the reason f...

  Assalamualaikum! masyaAllah tabarakallah esok dah 1 Ramadhan 1442H. Kalau kira dah Maghrib ni dah start la 1 Ramadhan yerr. Alhamdulillah dah sempat lagi menjalani puasa tahun ini. uhuhuhu so strange, it felt like it was just yesterday we celebrated modes Raya celebration kan. cause first time Raya in lockdown. hm. this year looks like it's going to be the same. with cases not going down any time sooner and tambah2 Kelantan in PKPB dah jugak now. Anyway, I'm writing to wish Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. moga moga Ramadan tahun ini dijadikan Ramadhan yg penuh makna. Buat ibadah sebaik mungkin. no need to follow others' steps cause their pace maybe is not the same as us. just as long as you ada nawaitu yg tulus, and effort to make it meaningful, insyaAllah it'll become meaningful. nota buat diri ini juga <3 annnddd--- maybe since my quarantine extend lagi until the 17th, this Saturday, I had new plans in mind on what to do to kill the time. I'm thinking of reviewing...

  Assalamualaikum! feel like writing some more so why not. alright let's talk about IPBA and covid cases right now. 05/04/2021 our first day intern. the same day (in the evening) one of our students here tested positive so we went into total lockdown. not totally jugak cause food deliveries were still allowed hehehe, but memang students cannot go out until 13th. then the whole boys from block 4 had to swab test and last 08/04 we got the results. 19 boys also positive and one of them was our farid uhuhu. alright, after messaged Iqah, asking how she was and all, turns out her bf wasnt the first person or the carrier. actually (maybe) someone from the 19 was already positive and infected Hamdi, and as Hamdi alone went for swab by his own, he got tested positive first. if it wasnt for him, memang sampai ke sudah we didnt even know someone was carrying the virus all along. ya Allah dahla kami ni intern kot, will be going to school interacting with hundreds of kids apa semua. luckily thi...

  Assalamualaikum. today's writing is a bit cringey but I'll try to keep going okayyy hehehehek. hm first off, this time, this post is dedicated more towards someone. I absolutely have zero idea on whether or not the person I dedicated this writing to would read this but, it's worth a shot since I'm too much of  a coward to write it personally to the person. and I dont want to affect any of his moments anymore with my unnecessary presence, sooo here I go. alright let's start with a lil bit of the story. long story but lemme shorten it. I like this person so I confessed but it didn't work out. we did had a 'thing' few years back but as always, mekya being mekya, I did what I've always done when someone got too close; I pushed him away and we kinda drifted apart. but now it didn't work out hahahaha. maleh nak crita panjang soo--- alright- let's go back to recently, he said what he said and I totally understand & respect it. yet, as he wasnt...

  Assalamualaikum. not a story-time or update on life or anything of sort. Just creating a post so I can pin it as my featured post explaining things going around in here. Starting from 2021's entries I decided to name the title of my post according to what song I'm listening to at the moment I'm writing the entry. So that when I reread all of these things some time in the future, I'd be remembered of the song and maybe go; "OMG I used to listen to this song a thousand times on loop" or something like "OMG this song is golden" or even, "WOWWW I forgot this song ever existed lemme go listen to it one more time". aaghhh what a feeling. so nostalgic. I love nostalgic. alright that's all. so enjoy, my loves. enjoy muach!

  Assalamualaikum again! wahahaha two entries in a day, what an achievement! alright story time! since we are in quarantine right now, of course la tak boleh keluar kan. this one quarantine betul punya, not like acah2 yg first datang ipba haritu hahaha. well to make things clear, yg aku quarantine acah haritu kitorang still tak keluar, it's just we have to find food and everything by ourselves so tak macam quarantine sangat, since we are allowed to go buy food outside apa semua, sbb nya pihak ipba memang tak sediakan makanan utk org quarantine (acah haritu). but--- this time since it's real, quarantine pom real, cases pom real, kitorang ada dapat makanan, of which will be put under each block every breakfast, lunch and dinner. then under my block, (block 6 i'm currently at 602B room B - gotta write this down so I remember when rereading this '.' ) ada mesin gedegang or vending machine tulaa bahasa hilirnya, in which they have some kind of drinks-- beverages, very ni...

 Assalamualaikum! we meet again! Today's going to be short. just updating I'm still alive & surviving. and yeah. I've gotta say about quarantine-ing right now as im sure i would love to read this again somewhere in the future and be reminded of this dreadful moment we've been through right now. so--- long story short, one of IPBA students got tested positive covid so we're in total lockdown. we just got off our first day intern and it (most probably?) was postponed for 2 weeks, so we'll maybe finish (grad) later than other sem 8 ipg students. and yesterday another 19 ss were moved out also, positive. takmau comment banyak pasal tu. just wishing insyaAllah, all will be well :) anywayyyy,,, while quarantine ni. Ive made a new resolution for my future self AHAKS! funny but im absolutely resolute about this kayy hehehe. when I enter working phase soon (insyaAllah), I will buy and read at least one book per month! I wanna go back to my long-lost hobby, reading fi...

  and Assalamualaikum! Hari yang indah untuk bercerita hahahaha. It's currently 0257 in the morning and I'm full of ideas on what to write so by Allah's will, ayuh kita curahkan idea-idea tersebut di sekeping canvas putih di alam maya ini. Don't mind the title which has nothing to do with what I am going to write now. It's a song I'm listening to while writing this piece so, I figured it's not a bad idea; the title would represent the current song I'm listening to while writing. One fine day, I'll come back here and read everything and be remembered of the song and the sentimental feelings that come with it. Alright, back to the topic. Hari ini aku nak bercerita mengenai MAGIC. as childish as it may sound, I hope the writing would magically sampai deep to the bottom of your heart hehehe. To start off, I am a hopelessly flawed person. I'm a sinner. I'm far from perfect. and I'm everything bad. yet, as what others might have wished for ever...

  Assalamualaikum readers (if any) WAHAHAHAHAHAHA YA ALLAH YA ALLAH almost 2 tahun tak bukak blog ni and I reread everything I've ever posted here and YA ALLAH CRINGE NYAAAA WAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH well pleaseeee DO NOT MIND all of my immature writings before this and I plan to hidupkan kembali this blog, since I'm nearing the end of my degree life and one less 'burden' to think of, I guess? so let's refresh this thing HAHAHAHAHAHAHA and I wont be deleting all those cringey posts sebab nanti tua nak tengok balik and nak cringe balik hahahahaha. Precious nyaa HAHAHAHA Actually Ive written about two posts from 2020 but I didnt finish so no posting last year. But to think again, it's quite a great story. sayangnya tak habiskan then I forgot the emotions already so if I continue sekarang, it wont be the same. such a shame uhuks. InsyaAllah someday I'll try to find the missing pieces (?) and put them all back together again hehehe. Ya Allah aku nak tukar senanya th...