"sweet night" kim taehyung

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salam sayang semuaaa!

aaaand the day has come again! my favourite day and date of all year - september 22nd! (it's tomorrow but lemme give myself an advanced birthday wish hehe)

I don't know if it's merely because it's my birthday, but ive always loved the date; 22/9, 22 September. the date itself I found beautiful, don't even know why but yeah... hehehe. maybe that's why my favourite number is 22. plus, I think it's also the most perfect time of the year, to be happy, to be celebrating. usually the rainy season is about to start, mid September, or early October. hence I've always felt it was a great time. a time where it's not too warm, nor too cold. just nice.

I actually had no idea what to write hahaha but I want to write something. keeping this date as a memory as tomorrow's also the start of our interview session (SPP). nerve-wrecking.

alright, let's try to write something. short, sweet and simple. tomorrow ill be 23. hm. 23. long way to go.

I'm not sure if any of you felt this, but for me, waking up every day now, I had come to develop the greed of having different wishes almost every day. I want this, that and everything. sometimes it's just "sero nok make tomyam hari ni," or another day it would be, "nok gi somewhere eh sero...". and these days, of course, as our minds had been busied by the interview thing, I had nothing more than to wish the best for myself, my friends and everyone. moga Allah permudahkan segalanya. insyaAllah.

all at the same time, there's this one wish I had held onto since last April and what makes its so agonizing is the fact that it is almost impossible to come true :) a wish that seems facile but way too far to reach.

anyway, as September twenty second is coming, my favourite day of the year, the day I've always felt contented to be happy and celebrating, the day where it's neither too hot nor too cold, the day I've always had my desire held high, I ardently wish for it to come true. the only wish I think I'll never give up on, until one day, I would fatedly forced to lose hope.

last but not least,

Happy Birthday, Dear Self.

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