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  Noor had always despised the person or people who invented the idea or speculation of ‘daughters would have closer relationship to the Dad, while sons would usually be closer to the Mom’. When Noor was seven, she confirmed herself that the statement was idiotically wrong and far from reality. At least in her reality.           Ever since she was a child, Noor has always felt that she was the unexpected, unwanted presence in their household. She shouldn’t have been there. She shouldn’t have been born. The only thing that sometimes would temporarily soothe her worries would be a hug from Aidil or a playful pinch on the cheek from Fahri, her older twin brothers. But it was momentarily, for every time she had to interact with her Baba, the burdening feelings of being unwanted came back, flooding in her thoughts and drowning her breathless in anxiety.           With Ami, it was bearable, she knew her Ami loves her, but still,...

  That day when we decided on a staycation after our graduation, I never would have imagined he would also be there. Don’t get me wrong. He’s always been a part of the group and after all that happened between us, he’s still a dear friend. Maybe a little bit too ‘deary’ for me. I mean- we were just fine and everything… was normal. But anyway, here we are. Sitting right across each other. So close yet so far. We all know that he's right now seeing someone and he seems genuinely happy. From what we all see, the girl's great. Passionate and loving. In every aspect, she's so much better than me. And I'm happy for him too. Well- that's what I've been trying to tell myself over and over and that's also what everyone perceives from seeing us so okay. God knows what I had to go through to put up with the whole thing. Oh God. I should stop. They were in love, they were happy! So get a grip and be happy for them, you stupid self! Anyway, what’s going on right now is, ...