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  Assalamualaikum and holaaa! This entry might be a bit depressing but well, life's just that sometimes hahaha. So last Tuesday, 14th November 2023, I've got into a car accident, which is my first time getting into a quite 'teruk' one. But yes, I lived. But the aftermath of the incident was so painful sometimes it makes me think, maybe I should've just gone forever that day. Maybe the pain won't be so unbearable if I just went to sleep and never woke up. But here we are. Tuhan masih memberi peluang untuk saya bertaubat dan beramal hari ini, but how I wish it was that easy to be grateful and keep living. Every night I tried to close my eyes, wishing I could forget everything, wishing it was all just a dream, but the pain in my every bones kept reminding me that it's not. And everytime I close my eyes, I'm back in the car on that Tuesday. The only way I could sleep is by crying so I cried and cried till I tire myself out and unconciously drift away. Then o

 "tears running dry, shattered inside but I still gotta smile, as I'm sinking. I relive the story" am I dreaming, lil nasx ft miley cyrus Assalamualaikum salam sejahtera everyone! I don't know what's gotten into me (maybe because I have public views now lol hihihi) but I'm really in the mood to write nowadays hahaha. Satu improvement ye buat seketul Alia to write more than 2 entries in a year >.< Lalu pada hari ini I would like to entertain yall with a story about sekolahku hehe. Now ladies and gentlemen, before we go into this further, a bit disclaimer; I wrote this in a positive and joking mode, bukan untuk complain ya hahaha. So.... going to school as a teacher ni of course you have your male colleagues, kalau sekolah cikgu laki la kan. One thing about cikgu laki sekolahku, they joke around a lot around us cikgu perempuan and mostly sebab itu modal depa nak bertegur. Sebab jarang berkomunikasi kecuali untuk hal kerja kan so that's the way they min

  "Because that moon looked lonely Because it looked like it’s crying bright in the night sky," Still With You, JK. Assalamualaikum salam sejahtera! My first thought when coming up with the title was-- if you ever got tired of life, remember there's 'still with you' by JK. the song will make you happy? no, it'll make you a lot sadder than you originally is but it's a great song maybe you won't be tired as much. lol. anyway, moving on... I always had so many ideas on what to write when I'm in the shower or eating or anywhere else. bila bukak je laptop in front of the keyboard terus blank. so frustrating but please bear with me. A bit of disclaimer: I'm not good at this (this blogging thing), I'm never good at it, there's a whole bunch of other people with better writing or storytelling skills than me, I simply just like doing it. It's a hobby, so I don't have to be good at it, right? Just enjoying it because why not, yes? hehe. A

  "when the snow falls, would my blue-bruised heart get covered in white? i'm sorry i didn't treat you well. that Christmas, i was only filled with regrets" The First Snow, EXO. Assalamualaikum salam sejahtera! I guess this entry would be made public (or not- I'm still thinking hahaha). Anyway, this is actually my second entry of the year, but I drafted the first one sebab cringey dooh pula penulisannya lol. I wrote it last April in which time, my heart was filled with loneliness yet all at the same time; hope. But now that I can think better, ughh apa benda la aku tulis time tu hahaha. Let it be history ig. Now, moving on to today's topic! I was looking for high school pictures the whole day today sebab tiba-tiba tertengok prompt ig ramai duk post gambar sekolah menengah. Then, tengah browse all kinds of ancient embarrassing pictures, of course all the memories come along and to my surprise, I don't really like reminiscing my high-school memories. hahaha.