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It's almost 3 in the morning now, finished our badminton session at 12 and lepak-lepak then went home by 2. Well-- whilst in the shower just now, I felt that I had to get these words down somewhere, hence, here we are. First and foremost, I'm right now taking an Insta-break, hehe (like someone I know), cause I felt it's much necessary for the mind. The main purpose of Insta for me is to share happy (sometimes sad but mostly happy) moments, with hope that everyone seeing could also feel the same happiness. Yet, since last week, it's been agonizing to view my friends' lives update in a joyful manner. When I felt such way, then the main reason of me having social media has gone. Selfishly, I felt some of their happiness was painful for me. The feelings of why can't I be like this, like that yada yada and so on emerges. Realizing I can no longer share the same happiness with them, it's best if I take a break. Maybe only for a while, cause I already feel a bit be...

I've always had a funny but some kind amazing thoughts in the morning :) Few days ago I woke up and thought if I'm not married by 30 I'm going to open my own book cafe hihihi. Soooo nice. Of course it's a silly dream to think now, but who knows right? Imma open one with this kind of vibe; aaahhh it's nice to have dreams and imagine we can achieve anything in the world. now let's talk about some life updates hehe. I'm all over the place nowadays. Some days are bearable, while others are excruciating and painful. It's not something I would share in here but after one 'incident' last August, my life hasn't been the same since. It's hard to be truly happy anymore. Let's just say the thing changed me whole internally. In the midst of all possibilities, though I doubt I'll ever forget, I hope to heal from it. Even a fracture of me. Anyways, let's talk about something cheerful. Well, for one, I've found every small and simple thi...

  Life has been too good now that I'm scared it's not real :') anyways- currently listening to Nostalgia, a piano instrumental by Smyang Piano. Assalamualaikum and hello! it's the second day of July and since we began school after Raya that day, I felt life has been sooo incredibly amazing. We've been so busy with sukan right now and maybe that's why I felt happier, skipping classes and teachings HAHAHAHA. That day right after naik lepas cuti raya terus latihan rumah sukan for about two weeks and minggu ketiga terus sukan sekolah. Then, habis aje sukan terus sambung MSSD for every sports;, starting with volleyball, then handball, netball, chess, olahraga, serta more to come. Semua lepas gian sebab 2 tahun tak ada sukan asbab PKP kan. And one more thing after sukan ni I've grown much much closer with the Year 6 kids, for which my days in school had been more entertaining than ever XD. they're so much fun to hang around and adaaa aje helah diorang that mad...

  Assalamualaikum and hello from the other side XD while writing this piece I'm currently listening to this song; Don't Text Me Youre Drunk. preserving this moment as always and this song deserves to be put here, it's definitely my jam hahaha. Now, here we are, after quite some time. it's April 16 and I'm entering my third month being a teacher here in Johor. and the rumors are all true after all, Johor really is a busy one. I felt we did more 'clerky' work more than we teach lmao. what a system. so annoying, but Alhamdulillah, right now it's not yet unbearable for me. I still can handle everything well so far and not that stressed or depressed yet. haha. hoping it'll last, InsyaAllah, moga-moga. Now I actually got a story to tell, we're in Ramadhan now, and it's been a blessing, having to fast for the first time in a new place, after so long. and I'm grateful for eveything, the food, the mosque, oh the beautiful mosque. and comfortable, ...

  Assalamualaikum! I've been thinking of updating since last December , masyaAllah now dah almost mid January hahaha. anyway, I think it's not too late to wish you all Happiest New Year!! Moga resolusi-resolusi tahun ini buat kalian, jiwa-jiwa yang sedang berusaha, kesemuanya dipermudahkan Tuhan dan dijamin kesuksesannya HAHAHAHA idek what I'm saying but yknow what I mean right. Last year maybe one of the most meaningful years I've ever had in my whole life. Tahun saya berjaya grad, tahun pkp kedua yg mengajar saya lebih banyak mengenal diri sendiri, physical and mentally, and one of my fav but saddest moments- watching my one and only kakak diijab kabul sekaligus welcoming a new member of the family. Then antara my fav moments juga was when I know my posting result. hahahaha the moment I knew the result, my feelings were as neutral as possible. Check kat website JPN Johor tu keluar result, I felt nothing. nak kata happy sangat tak jugak, sedih? kecewa? not at all. mayb...